It’s been 7 months since u left us
I’ve been through a lot of things
So many things I want to share, so many things I want to tell
I still remember when told u that I applied for the SUSI program in USA
U said, “Do u want to leave me alone at home?”
I was so angry at that time
“Why don’t u support me?” i thought
a month later u were laying at the hospital
and all the Doctors said there is no hope for u to live longer
then I prayed to God:
I don’t need to go to USA,
I don’t even need to go to UK
as long as my Dad can live a little longer,
to see me graduate.
Just wait a little longer, Dad.
But Dear God,
I’m so selfish.
I don’t know what’s the best for him.
I’m just thinking what’s the best for me.
So Dear God,
I bow to Thee
I will accept everything U have planned for my Dad and for my life
I will not ask for more for everything.
Finally I went to USA
I saw and experienced so many things
When I saw things u like, I wanted to tell u right after
When I experienced new things that u ever told me, I wanted to share what I feel to u
Oh Dear Dad,
U’re not here anymore
But ur soul and spirit is in my heart
I will be ur eyes and ur hands
I will keep seeing and experiencing new good things on behalf of u
I’m praying to God
I thank U for everything
Took my Dad with U is the best thing U gave to my family and to him
U released him from his sorrow
Even my Dad is not here anymore,
but U gave me a lot of people surround me
that love me, take care of me, and keep me alive
Let me be a person who always be thankful
Let me be a person who can bring happiness in the hearts of everyone I meet every day
Teach me how to care
how to love
how to share
and how to serve
I don’t have anything to ask.
please tell this to him:
Dear Dad who are with God now,
Rest in peace
I love u.
August 29, 2010